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Seriously suck…

I seriously suck at blogging. I really truly wish I was good at it, but I’m not. But I’m gonna try…I know you’ve heard or shall I say “read” that one before and I’m only like 3 posts into this blog. Oh boy I have issues. 🙂

I kinda feel like I suck at a lot of things right now. I’ve lost a lot of motivation recently…mostly due to life’s circumstances, which temporally drained me of just about everything. But motivation has been the big one. Like…

I think I can count on ONE hand the times I have worked out since November.
I think I can count on probably both hands the amount of times I have cooked dinner since right before Christmas.
I’m trying really hard to keep up with a group online at church and read through the Bible this year and that is proving nearly impossible (although I’m in the Word and I know that’s what counts and is important).
My house is a disaster.
I think I could go on.

A dear friend of mine always reminds me to have grace with myself, to allow myself to go through seasons when I’m not on top of everything and to relax, sleep, heal, cry, enjoy time with those that I love and to let go of some of the standards I set up for myself. That’s been a good reminder.

I’m thankful it’s a new year. Last year kinda and mostly sucked. Although I have taken time to thank the Lord for the good, the bad, and unfair. That’s important too, to praise God when life sucks. He is so faithful. And His presence in our lives has been so evident the last month or so. That’s so comforting.

Ken and I started the year saying “new year, new beginnings”. I don’t know what the means just yet. And I have no idea what the Lord is going to do. Which is exciting…and scary.

So here’s to a new year…a little late. Perhaps…with no promises, that maybe I’ll be a better blogger.

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